Looking Within

My rest has been an experiance so far, as my body craves action. For awhile I was misled about how to handle my ankle and knee pains. I was listening to my body and my intuition, however I had to keep researching other sources to find out if I'm injured or not. That's all trash inside my head, preventing me from recovering.

Nobody, no doctor, would know my body better than me. If I can only choose to listen to myself and have the courage to look inside myself for the answer, and accept the responsibility of the Truth I know. Fortunately my pains are just from overuse, not enough rest. There is no injury, no swelling, I can bear weight, my joints in question do not buckle under weight, and the pain is very mild. I am also well aware of the need to recover from these mild discomforts, because they could easilly get worse in time and ignorant usage... The point is to atop seeking answers outside yourself, from other people... your answers are within. Don't be afraid, for fear is a natural emotion like the clouds and rain overhead. Fear keeps you alive.

The time I spend idle has left me with nothing much to do accept meditate on various concerns of mine. I'm actually glad I have this rest period ahead of me, it will allow me to really decide on important matters that have been on my mind. It will also grant me an opportunity to begin my training anew, fully recovered and very eager to get sweaty everyday.

The thing is, there are some realizations that every warrior must know. The first lesson to train and meditate on: Get rid of ALL the junk 'thoughts' in your mind. A junk thought is one that prevents you from being completely in the moment. Life is not the future, life is not impressing someone else, life is not in the past, life is right now and once this moment is gone it's never coming back. There is never 'nothing' going on.

When you are grounded in the moment, it's Zen like, or whatever earthly label you call it. It's like 'Neo' in The Matrix being able to do anything impossible. The important thing is the awareness of that moment, the Move or Technique the martial artist is performing. Don't think about it...Do it.

A warrior does not ever give up what he loves, he finds the love in what he does. Being injured like this is the essence of the warrior; absolute vulnerability, the only true courage. Choose to be a victim, or anything you'd like to be. Life is a choice.

So as I lay around to rest my legs, I can only think. I think that I love this, this part of life. I am alive while I lay there thinking. I realize that happiness, success, it's a journey. The journey itself is what brings us happiness, not the destination. The battles a warrior faces are not on the outside. The battles we fight are on the inside, for peace. The battle to be happy, without a reason in the world.