I quit smoking about three weeks ago. It feels like an eternity and insanity all meshed together like my childhood thanksgiving dinner bites...I guess they're the same. I have been training and conditioning myself really aggresively to help achieve the goal of becoming a non-smoker. Funny thing is how much more difficult it makes everything. I want to train more today, but I cannot because I lack the endurance. Being clear across the country...not much to do. And this is the path to the dark side....this cynical line of thought.
I guess being alone for the time being with my girlfriend on a work assignment will help me. One simply cannot fall into the pattern of unknowingly using your relationship, your lover, as your sense of identity. In other words when you have no crutch to lean on, you have to figure something else out on your own. The ability to function independently is crucial for your health and well-being individually as well as in your relationship. Jealosy is a cruel master to live by.
I would know. Instead of cherishing the wonderful moments I have, I would be overwhelmed by paranoia and jealousy. This did nothing more than make us miserable. Don't do that. I'm incredibly lucky that I have a lady who overlooks that and see's me for me. I'm not like that...I won't be like that. As quitting smoking, my training, and everything else is a sort of ongoing evolution; I will grow and become more than I am. Just don't waste the time you have, make the most of every moment you have, especially with her.
See that's the whole point, the ticket to sucess. Be yourself, be aware, be free. If you are self actualized and actively pursue your own rational self interest you will by Darwins law if nothing else attract your lover ever more so. Someday may never arrive; do it now. Your dreams, happiness, and success await you.
Monday, June 25, 2007
Thursday, June 21, 2007
Much more than your magazine cover tells you to be...
Parkour - the art of movement. Jeet Kun Do - the art of expressing the human body.
In a time when there is so much stimulation with the media and distraction with advertisements telling you what you need, who you are...
I've discovered an approach at life early on: It was up to me to do anything. I was not sheltered from the world and it's joys and horrors. In the beginning this was negative from being exposed to tremendous mental abuse in my early and impressionable teenage years. Hey, it made me who I am today.
My current evolution is taking place through the art of movement, le parkour. I am very new to the actual techniques established as the most effective techniques...however I am not new to conditioning my body. What trully sets parkour apart from every 'sport' out there is it's requirement and at the same time it's purpose: to master yourself, to master your enviroment.
It continuously amazes me how parkour attracts my interest by setting me free to move about spaces as I wish to, to liberate that railing with one official use and create with it a thousand jungle gyms. The grace and elegance you can feel as you flow from one move to the next...like water. It let's me be like water; constantly flowing life over under around or through anything...becoming any confinement by being shapeless and every shape at the same time. One of the only human purposes in life is our capacity to create. Through parkour training my imagination fires and my mind is so much more active in ways I long thought I had forgotten about. To envision yourself doing a difficult move, to see unlimited ways to move over or around obstacles. To imagine, to envision, to reaize that vision. This is Parkour.
I've trained most of my life...at least I've been very active my whole life. Parkour has introduced me to myself. To train properly requires a tremendous amount of thought and awareness, or else you soon realize why you keep getting injured. My routines constantly shift and flow with my new awareness of some obscure stabilizer muscle I never knew I had. Constantly changing my conditioning routines to adapt to knew insights to my body, by a new level of awareness and understanding...I'm so thrilled by these sensations, this understanding of how my body works. To know thyself. This is Parkour.
Fear. Some of us see more of society becoming based on fear. It is everywhere. The grim vision put forth by Aldus Huxley's 'A Brave New World', or Orwell's '1984'. Our wars across the globe, our lack of attention to other crisis centers, that hot body in the magazine, or the kid everyone picks on...fear is a reality in the shaping of our world, and this negative energy is spiraling out of control. It seems to dominate alot of our world in such a sublte way. Goodkind wrote, "Evil thinks not to beguile us by unveiling the terrible truth of it's festering intent, but comes instead disguised in the diaphonous robes of virtue, whispering sweet-sounding lies intended to seduce us into the dark bed of our eternal graves." Everytime I go out to train I shatter the ability of evil to hold sway over me. To precision jump from one spot to another knowing I could be seriously injured, to build up to that move slowly untill I accomplish the feat... I shatter the unrational sence of fear. I shatter the fears I'm conditioned by society to accept as my reality. I am not afraid of the dark, I am not afraid when I have the ability to defend myself or flee when I cannot defend myself. I am not afraid to defend LIFE.
This is perhaps my greatest love of Parkour - to know that I am no longer a captive of unrational Fear. I am not alone. I don't need to spend a dime to be happy. I'm not afraid.
This is parkour.
In a time when there is so much stimulation with the media and distraction with advertisements telling you what you need, who you are...
I've discovered an approach at life early on: It was up to me to do anything. I was not sheltered from the world and it's joys and horrors. In the beginning this was negative from being exposed to tremendous mental abuse in my early and impressionable teenage years. Hey, it made me who I am today.
My current evolution is taking place through the art of movement, le parkour. I am very new to the actual techniques established as the most effective techniques...however I am not new to conditioning my body. What trully sets parkour apart from every 'sport' out there is it's requirement and at the same time it's purpose: to master yourself, to master your enviroment.
It continuously amazes me how parkour attracts my interest by setting me free to move about spaces as I wish to, to liberate that railing with one official use and create with it a thousand jungle gyms. The grace and elegance you can feel as you flow from one move to the next...like water. It let's me be like water; constantly flowing life over under around or through anything...becoming any confinement by being shapeless and every shape at the same time. One of the only human purposes in life is our capacity to create. Through parkour training my imagination fires and my mind is so much more active in ways I long thought I had forgotten about. To envision yourself doing a difficult move, to see unlimited ways to move over or around obstacles. To imagine, to envision, to reaize that vision. This is Parkour.
I've trained most of my life...at least I've been very active my whole life. Parkour has introduced me to myself. To train properly requires a tremendous amount of thought and awareness, or else you soon realize why you keep getting injured. My routines constantly shift and flow with my new awareness of some obscure stabilizer muscle I never knew I had. Constantly changing my conditioning routines to adapt to knew insights to my body, by a new level of awareness and understanding...I'm so thrilled by these sensations, this understanding of how my body works. To know thyself. This is Parkour.
Fear. Some of us see more of society becoming based on fear. It is everywhere. The grim vision put forth by Aldus Huxley's 'A Brave New World', or Orwell's '1984'. Our wars across the globe, our lack of attention to other crisis centers, that hot body in the magazine, or the kid everyone picks on...fear is a reality in the shaping of our world, and this negative energy is spiraling out of control. It seems to dominate alot of our world in such a sublte way. Goodkind wrote, "Evil thinks not to beguile us by unveiling the terrible truth of it's festering intent, but comes instead disguised in the diaphonous robes of virtue, whispering sweet-sounding lies intended to seduce us into the dark bed of our eternal graves." Everytime I go out to train I shatter the ability of evil to hold sway over me. To precision jump from one spot to another knowing I could be seriously injured, to build up to that move slowly untill I accomplish the feat... I shatter the unrational sence of fear. I shatter the fears I'm conditioned by society to accept as my reality. I am not afraid of the dark, I am not afraid when I have the ability to defend myself or flee when I cannot defend myself. I am not afraid to defend LIFE.
This is perhaps my greatest love of Parkour - to know that I am no longer a captive of unrational Fear. I am not alone. I don't need to spend a dime to be happy. I'm not afraid.
This is parkour.
The Journey Begins
Today I step into new territory... to join the many who embrace the liberation of their expressions... I hope to share and evolve ideas to further enhance ourselves, as indeed my calling in life is the highest; to master my psyche, my spirit, my vessle in this life. Information itself is pure; the intent of someone using that information determines it's alignment toward good or evil.
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